Dreaming of cardboard & Frustration

I finished the second poster in the Orange Sheep poster series. I haven't slept too much because of this project. I keep having very odd dreams about cardboard sheep playing musical instruments. Either I have been spending too much time on this or I need to spend more time on it just to get it out of my head. At this point I'm a bit too sleep deprived to know which is the better idea. Plus I know I need to work more devoutly on the JAFAX program. I have all the sketches and all the elements to make it but when I start hashing it out in Illustrator and Photoshop I get very frustrated for some reason. Possibly because it's just not coming together like my sketches or because my heart just isn't in it for some reason.

I believe I'm having that artistic dilemma where part of you wants to make art to get paid and the other part of you just wants to make art because it makes you happy. With the Orange Sheep project I sit down put on some music and loose all track of time completely. Till it's around 3am and I freak out because I have to go to work in 5 hours. Thankfully there is plentiful amounts of coffee or I would probably crash and burn very fast. But in that time I spend working like mad it is the only time in my waking life that I feel the most sane. The rest of the time isn't bad by any means but I spend so much time second guessing myself and feeling frustrated over things that will probably never change. When I work on my art I relax and let go and every stressful thing in my life seems to not matter so much. Then there is that sad realization that you have to go back to it all and deal with life. I really wish I knew the answer to make this feel better in any way.

Wow that was kind of a depressing blog entry. Any hoo here is the second poster. I'm not sure I like it as much as the first but I am still fond of it.